Unsent Messages

I've finally felt attractive for an extended period of time again. Turns out abandonment issues don't help one deal with being cheated on very well. I guess the schadenfreude I get from knowing you're still not over me helps build my confidence though cause I guess I'm winning a race or something. Schadenfreude I get from seeing how bad your bangs and hair color are now also helps with my self-esteem. The downside is I don't get the luxury of over idealizing my last partner in my mind cause you kinda showed your true colors after saying you'd change to, what I can only assume is your reason, get in my pants. By the way, who calls someone on the phone to tell them you can make it to their party now in such a situation? Like bro, leave that for when you're back??? Like it came off like you were seeking pity points or something when you already won the contest you know? I'm not as great as you remember, but damn am I hot lately so I kinda get why you're having trouble moving on, except the fact that you crush so easily and def cheated on me with more than the last two guys who I thankfully forget the names of. Like bro, you can't convince me after betraying my trust and not respecting me as a person for months that you weren't doing this behind my back already. Leason learned to end a relationship right when your partner asks to make it open though. Hope the grammar isn't too bad here and it's readable/understandable, but to be fair is it really worth the time to read back through this for you?