Unsent Messages

you were my best friend. i cared about you so much and you broke me, you fucking broke me. you bullied me every day for years, said that i was worthless and no one would ever love me, or even give a shit about me. and you know what was the worst thing? i started fucking believing you. my friends kept you around even though they knew how much you hurt me, sat there while you said things to me that no one should. i started fucking believing you. it had happened for so long and i trusted you before and my friends never cared enough to stop it, so i just sat there and took it, you know? i thought that i was strong enough. i wasn't. i seemed invincible, huh. i thought i was. i pretended it didn't tear me apart every single day. then you started hitting me, just here and there but wow that was not helpful. anyway, i'm sorry. i'm sorry for whatever i did to make you so hate me, but more than that, i'm sorry for being weak enough to believe it.