Unsent Messages

i wish you were here right now, i miss you so much, like every day it gets worse, i feel so bad for not saying goodbye to you before you went on that trip, i love you so much and theres so much that i wish i could tell you, like relationship problems, ever since we were little you always sort of knew how to solve every problem, like when we were 9 and i bashed my face i the concrete because i was riding too fast, you knew exactly what to do, i just dont get it, why did it have to be you, i really wish i said bye to you, on your birthday me and philip hung out, i cried to him for hours, he doesnt really understand all of my problems and he was a bit rude, but its his way of showing love, hes always been like that, ever since we were kids, people at our school are shipping us again , i hate it so much, why cant people just understand that were just friends, he misses you so much too, he doesnt say it, but trust me he does. also me and that boy i told you about are still together, i really like him, like a lot, you would like him too, im sort of starting to become like him almost as if im copying his personality, im not mad about it though, hes pretty cool and nice, its weird that he likes me though because ive always been this really shy, innocent girl and i never attract guys, its always my body, i hope its different this time. bye for now, i love you -your best friend