it hurts so much knowing that you probably think of me as no more than a friend or even just an acquaintance. i know it’s so likely that you’ll never feel the same and the odds of us are most definitely not in my favour but i’ll always be there for you no matter what, you’re everything to me, i think you’re the definition of perfection. it hurts seeing you and losing focus on everything around me because of your beautiful eyes that change from the colour of a forest in summer to a galaxy like
blue in the sun. eventhough you may not see the same you as i do, i assure you that what you may see as imperfections are what make you so charming. i know you feel the need to hide your true feelings around others sometimes and i wish that i could just give you a hug and tell
you that everything will be okay and that you can always vent to me but i cant. if things were different i hope that i would stand even the slightest chance with you than i do now, you’ll probably find a love of your own soon and it probably won’t be me and i won’t deny it, it’ll hurt bad but all would ever want is to see you happy. you are unlike no other that i have ever met, i love that you have such a passion for history and writing, i would love to learn more about both. i admire you so very much and you are my inspiration to pursue my love of writing which i would have never taken further if it wasn’t for you. i have read some of your writing online and although i may be slightly biased, i genuinely do think you have so much potential and that you’re such a talented writer, you could write about the most dull subjects and i would be immersed in the words for hours on end. i am so thankful to have you in my life, even if you will never feel the same, even if you never notice me in the same way of which i notice you and even if you forget me. you mean so much to me and i know i have recently expressed some of those feelings but words on a plain little card cannot even begin to illustrate my admiration for you. this has gone father than i ever anticipated and i myself cannot even begin to fathom how this has happened but it has, i have begun to pick up on the slightest little things such as the way you always walk with perfect posture, the way you always tilt your head slightly when you grin and the way your eyes twinkle when we make eye contact. i think i’m in love with you but i’m not sure that you can or will ever know.