Unsent Messages

I liked you for 4 years. You fell in love right in front of me several times and I couldn’t do anything but watch. Our friends would tease you about your new girlfriend and I would laugh along even though it hurt so much. I thought – “Why doesn’t he return my feelings? What do I need to do to get him to notice me? Am I really that unlikeable?”.. We used to be so close. We would text until the crack of dawn, talking about everything and nothing at the same time. But then you suddenly stopped replying, and then you grew distant from me until I wasn’t even sure I considered you my friend anymore. More than anything, I was hurt because you threw our friendship away without hesitation. It was too late when I admitted to myself that I liked you. Because you didn’t even look my way anymore. You would pass by me on the hallways without even so much as a glance and refuse to start conversations with me. Yet I kept chasing you like the fool that I am. Kept finding ways to be closer to you, casually start a conversation as if my heart wasn’t pounding in my chest, act like everything was fine when it really wasn’t. I don’t think I like you anymore, but thinking about you still hurts me so much. I don’t even know what to say here anymore. Please be well.