From: ABC
To: nathan
Date: January 1, 2021, 10:00 pm
i dont know if you ever loved me or not , i dont know if you only liked the idea of someone loving you but now i know that i wasnt in love with you but rather in love with your words and the picture of you in my head. I spent 4 of my teen years attached to you. Maybe i was too scared not to have you as a safety blanket but you never really wanted me ever , you just didnt want me to be with anyone else , a little part of me still thinks that you were embarrassed to like me or to be seen with me. i dont know if you were really my first love .i guess ill find out in the future , all i know is you were my first attachment and you used that against me. But now i look at you and i feel nothing ,and that is the greatest relief i could ever have. You are now just my teenage love and will forever stay like that.