i'm sorry i come off mean and cold. even i don't understand why i say the things i say to you but i don't think you understand that i care for you more than i've cared about most people and if you ever needed anything i would be there in a heartbeat without hesitation every time. the way i care about you, it's not even in a romantic way. you're just one of my favorite people i've ever met. and i think that's why i'm cruel. because i think i'm scared of caring about anyone that much because it's never been reciprocated and i'd rather push you away than let you in and lose you...