Unsent Messages

it hurts because I just want one more hug. I just wish we could still talk but I know we can’t because it hurts me too much so please tell someone how its going, how home is, how your parents are because I know its hard but please tell or talk to someone if its not me. Trust me you worry to much about what other people think, they won’t think your weird or not like you if you tell them something about you trust me. I’m always right remember? I loved you then I loved you when I broke up with you and I still love you know. I just wished you knew how much everyone cares about you. I don’t think we will get back together and Im fine with that because we are well and truly just so different from each other. I’m fine with it I just miss you. I just wish I had done better, sometimes I forget what happened and imagine that you’re on your way to pick me up like you did in summer and we’d sing those songs back when we were okay. But all I wanted was for you to be happy and yet here I am still crying over you ans missing you even after what you put me through? I still love you and I think I always will that happens with first loves. You were my person but yoyre not anymore ans that hurts because when I feel like this I know you were the only one who really knew me luke. You were the one who I could go to and I know it took a while ans I miss you for that because I have no one. But it’s okay. I’m sorry it had to be this way but you have to promise me still that you carry on pushing through and doing what you’re doing no matter how hard it gets. You can’t break a pinky promise. I’ll love you always dickhead and I’m sorry that was the top most of my affection when we were together and I wish I’d loved you harder when we were together because it’s what you needed and I’m sorry. I’m so fucjing sorry luke. I wish you’d come back but I know it’s not good for either of us. I love you endlessly