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You led me on for 3 years, you could’ve told me that you didn’t want me. But you led me on, then you left. I was heartbroken because I spent 3 years loving you while you were drooling over other girls. You ghosted me after 3 years. I wasted my time on you and you didn’t even care. I cried for so long, you left me so damaged and heartbroken. I thought that you didn’t like me because I wasn’t enough for you. But then you decide you want to come back into my life. You talked to me more and more, I caught feelings again. But then you decided to be rude to me and call me names which caused me to be more insecure than I already am. You made me starve myself for months that even my friends and family noticed I never ate. I lost a lot of weight but you still called me names. I hate you for all the pain you caused me. I wasted my time on you. I wish I never met you. I almost killed myself because I thought that if you didn’t even love me then no one does. I was so close to killing myself, now whenever I look into the mirror, I start to cry because my hair reminds me of you. When I watch tik toks, it reminds me of you... I can’t do anything without thinking abt the time and love I wasted on you. I fucking hate you Howard.