I wish I told you that I loved you. That I would have chosen you over everyone and anything if you just asked.

You led me on for 3 years, you could’ve told me that you didn’t want me. But you led me on, then you left. I was heartbroken because I spent 3 years loving you while you were drooling over other girls. You ghosted me after 3 years. I wasted my time on you and you didn’t even care. I cried for so long, you left me so damaged and heartbroken. I thought that you didn’t like me because I wasn’t enough for you. But then you decide you want to come back into my life. You talked to me more and more, I caught feelings again. But then you decided to be rude to me and call me names which caused me to be more insecure than I already am. You made me starve myself for months that even my friends and family noticed I never ate. I lost a lot of weight but you still called me names. I hate you for all the pain you caused me. I wasted my time on you. I wish I never met you. I almost killed myself because I thought that if you didn’t even love me then no one does. I was so close to killing myself, now whenever I look into the mirror, I start to cry because my hair reminds me of you. When I watch tik toks, it reminds me of you... I can’t do anything without thinking abt the time and love I wasted on you. I fucking hate you Howard.

How do I even have power? Complete blur. Is all of this because of you? I think I lost my best friend of 10 years because of you. I'm not sure exactly how. To prove my loyalty to you? You kept wanting to prove my love and loyalty for you and do as you say? It might've been you who ruined everything. I think I've proven my loyalty by now and I'm destroyed. And you betrayed and hurt me. I’ll always defend you. ?

thank you for being there and loving me no matter what. i know there are many things we need to work on but we’ll get there :)

Why did I stay up all those nights talking to you? It’s been a long time, why the fuck do I still think about you?

I'm disappointed

You ruined me for a long time. I hope you suffer like I did someday.

I miss you, stinky

we could’ve been great together. I miss you so much.

i'm sorry i was emotionally distant during everything

i like you since elem

Sometimes I regret ever getting with you in the first place. What are we doing?

I know we’re going to get married one day

I miss you. I wish you missed me too.

Thank you for being with me. I’ll miss us. Hope your next gf pampers you like a true princess.

I miss you ,you idiot. Your smile is something I wanna see the rest of my life .

i love admiring u from afar. ur smile and ur face so kissable. i js want to kiss u so bad. i love u.

i hope i find you at a bar in five years and we give each other that look again.