Unsent Messages

i love you to death, i wanna marry you. I know you're the one for me, but we can't be together. We always fight and we're so toxic. I think the main thing that's holding me back though is because I don't trust you. You're always lying to me and idk why because I already know you're lying so there's no point in making it worse. I mainly feel like a second option though. Like whenever you talk about your ex I get insecure, not because like I'm insecure about myself or anything but because I just feel like you and her have unresolved feelings. I know she broke up with you but I think she may still like you and I think you only like me because I'm the only one who likes you and you take advantage of that, because when you think about it; If she had never broken up with you, you'd still be with her right now and I probably would've gotten over you by now, or maybe not, but I guess we'll never know. I just feel like, now things are different. Before I used to look at you and not care if you hurt me, I would continue to do anything for you. But now I realize there needs to be boundaries. I need to guard my heart and I learned that because of you.