Malachi was the one person ive never settled for because u met my standards but somehow we are always brought back together and i hope it stays like that because i want you to be mine again but your so confusing

i love you to death, i wanna marry you. I know you're the one for me, but we can't be together. We always fight and we're so toxic. I think the main thing that's holding me back though is because I don't trust you. You're always lying to me and idk why because I already know you're lying so there's no point in making it worse. I mainly feel like a second option though. Like whenever you talk about your ex I get insecure, not because like I'm insecure about myself or anything but because I just feel like you and her have unresolved feelings. I know she broke up with you but I think she may still like you and I think you only like me because I'm the only one who likes you and you take advantage of that, because when you think about it; If she had never broken up with you, you'd still be with her right now and I probably would've gotten over you by now, or maybe not, but I guess we'll never know. I just feel like, now things are different. Before I used to look at you and not care if you hurt me, I would continue to do anything for you. But now I realize there needs to be boundaries. I need to guard my heart and I learned that because of you.

I've never been dependent on anyone cuz you're stronger when you're independent, but you're the one person I can't live without

I really hope you didn't find this website and read all my letters lol but if u did just know that this is how I really feel about you it's just hard to tell you to your face sometimes also if you're reading this and don't know who it is, i'll give you a hint. Our song is No guidance by Drake and Chris Brown.

I put all my letters to you in this color bc ik you're favorite color is blue so if it says Malachi and has this color, it was most likely from me lol

You absolutely destroyed my heart, but I need to get over the fact that, I still love you. And I don't think i'll ever forget you.

When i wrote these letters i never meant to hurt you, i only wanted to say how i felt without being judged, but that doesn't change the fact that i love you. I will always love you, pinky promise. And never in a thousand years could i leave you.

lol i'm supposed to be doing hw rn but I just wanted to say that I love you and you mean the world to me

You know, i always loved you. i never faked it, i loved you so much i would die just to get 10 seconds with you. But you know what, our relationship was so fucking toxic it was hurting me so fucking much and i didnt even know it, ur so toxic you dont even realize. im glad i moved on you asshole, im going to kill myself now, so i hope you and gabby die too and be together in heaven cuz ur such a godly kid, you directed me to the fucking bible when i came out as bi to you, go fuck urself asshole, eat shit. im happy, remember you said i would never find happiness, me too. suck it bitch. goodbye to a stranger i used to love, goodbye to the most toxic person i met, goodbye. now ur just somebody that i used to know.

We never dated but it still hurt when you left..it’s been 10 weeks since we last talked and I just wanna say I love you..and I’m sorry for what ever I did bc not even I understand what I did you just suddenly stopped talking to me.

the last night i saw you i told you “please dont break up with me” you responded “i couldnt if i tried” but you left me an hour later.

i still fall in love with the way you smile every time i see it, i wish it was still my smile to make happen

I probably won't ever stop having feelings for you. Sadly, I got so attached and so used to you being in my life that I can't see a life without you and I can't accept the fact that we left each other and probably won't see each other again. I know you're thinking about me right now, I can feel it. I've been thinking about you too and I keep trying to tell myself that we're better off not in each other's lives but right now all I feel is pain. I miss you so much and I just really need a hug.

Everyday I think to myself why am I not good enough. Why am I not good enough to get a long paragraph or an apology or a simple text of reassurance. I would do anything for you, why can't you do the same for me.

I love you but are we really meant to be together? Part of loving someone is learning to let go and as much as I don't want to I feel like I have to

I learned so much from you. And I'm finally proud to say I don't crave you anymore when I get lonely.

im not sure why i keep submitting these. im not sure why i still love you. im not sure why i still miss you.

I love you more than words can say. I think about you all the time and even though you continuously hurt me, I will always love you and I will never stop because I believe in us and I believe that we are meant to be together, so why can't you feel the same?

Remember that day when we were in gym class and you were walking around the track by yourself so I came over and started walking with you and we just started talking and that was when I realized I was in love with you

hi, if you happen to see this can you please write a reply to let me know if you were ever interested in me (or even noticed me) or if I just made it all up in my head. idc if I made it up, all it’d mean is that I have a good imagination and a big ego, but I just need to know now for the sake of my sanity, thank u very much

i love you. there’s nothing i don’t love about you except the fact that you love her. but i understand. i love you, a lot.

I love you and I do really want to be with you, so bad. I want us to get married and have kids and die together, but I'm scared. I'm so scared, I don't want you to leave and I know that you tell me all the time that you won't but it's like these thoughts in my head that tell me that you're gonna leave anyway. And I try not to bring the past into things I really do but the past influences my feelings right now bc you said you said you wouldn't leave and you did and idk if I'm ever going to get over that. I'm scared to give you my all because I'm already so attached to you and if you leave I'm gonna have to live with that constant pain. I didn't want to tell you all this because I didn't want you to feel guilty but I want to be honest with you. It's like whenever I look at you all I can think of is you leaving. I choose you, I chose you from the beginning. There's nobody else, it's just that right now I'm not ready to be in a relationship, mentally, physically. Before I felt like no matter what you did I would always come back to you and you could cheat or leave and I would still want to date you, but now I feel different. It's not that I'm losing feelings or anything, I just feel different and I don't really know how to explain it. I need you to change. I want you to admit when you're wrong and try to solve problems and stop saying sorry but then continue to do the same thing. I want us to have a good stable relationship and not argue all the time. And I'm sorry to keep you waiting but I'm just not ready and idk when I'm going to be.

This is exactly how i feel about you "there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain" -Bruno Mars "it will rain"

You were my best friend. I'm sorry I couldn't change. you were in my life for a little bit. you'll always have a soft spot saved in my heart.

So you know what I realized today, that if you wanted to stay in my life you would've. You would've tried harder, you would've tried to make it work, you would've showed me that you cared, but you didn't.

So you told me you loved me, said you wanted to be with me forever, called me every day, texted me for hours, and led me on just to leave...wow

You know what the crazy thing is, I cried over you, I prayed for you, texted you, called you, checked up on you, talked to you, told you stuff I never told anyone else, wrote you love letters, gave you my all and made you a priority in my life and you don't care, you never did.

You know the thing that hurts the most, the fact that I'm a pretty understanding person and if you liked her you didn't have to lie about it, you could've told me and I would've understood. But instead you lied until you got caught and I don't know why like why would you do that. Why would you hurt someone who does nothing but think about you all day and care about you. You think I'm all bipolar and that I just start problems but you're the only thing I've ever been sure about in my entire life. When everyone else doubted you and said you weren't the one I ignored them because I saw the good in you and I wanted other people to see that too. But then you had to go fuck it up and now look at me, I look stupid for defending you. That's some real bs.

So you constantly lied to me, played me, put me as a second option, made me feel like shit , had me crying over you, made me overthink and start to have anxiety and now you wanna come back? I needed you when I was going through shit, not after.

You know what else is crazy, I told you that you were my everything and that if u left I would feel like I had nothing, and you left anyway.

Everyone says that we shouldn't be together. My friends think that your're using me and my I kind of do too, but that will never stop me from loving you. You are my everything and without you I feel like I am nothing. You make me smile and laugh and feel like I'm the most important girl in the entire world. We planned our entire future together and you said you wanted to be with me forever. But forever doesn't mean forever because we don't know how long that is so we can be together for however long, until we die; Or maybe not. We're so toxic and we're always fighting. It's like one day we're good and the next day we're bad. I want us to have a stable relationship where we can talk without arguing. Every time I say I'm going to cut you off I want to but I can't because I don't want to lose you. Your my happiness and I don't want to lose that. But even if we do stop talking, I have a feeling we'll find each other again in the future. We always come back to each other. But maybe this time we won't, and that's why I'm scared to let you go. I've never been this attached to someone before. You're the first person I think about when I wake up and you're always on my mind before I go to bed. I wish we could just run away together. I feel like all of our problems are because of everyone else. If it was just us two in the world it'd be perfect. I feel so drawn to you, like I can't let you go.

I just really wish you would have been honest with me. I really liked you and I thought we had something good but you made me feel so unsure of myself and i used to overthink everything. You got back with your ex after you told me you didn’t want anything and you said you cared but your actions did not reflect that. I am trying to move past this but because of you I don’t feel like I can even let myself fall for anyone anymore. Apart of me still has hope that you will reach out and apologize so I can get closure. I really hope you do. I have been manifesting about it and apart of me wants clarity of if you really meant it when you said you cared. But I know Micah is probably your first choice. But I wish you nothing but the best. But hopefully one day you will realize you had somebody that really wanted nothing but to care for u and show you something different.

Nobody wants me to be with you, but it's only because they only see the bad times. When I look at you all I see is the good.

I wish we worked, mali




I miss you again.

you don't understand how much I love you

i wish you missed me the way i miss you. please text me.

I'm sorry for how I ended it, it still haunts me and I'd give anything to squeeze your hand again

i wish you missed me. text me more. times arrow marches fast.

In front of that apartment door was the last time I saw u befor it ended.I wish u never walked away.

I too wish we still talked like we used to

it's been 2 years. i think about you everyday. i will always have space for you in my heart

Do you still remember the nights on the phone on new years?I miss it sm.

why arent you inviting me anywhere any more i thought i was ur best friend?

I would do anything just to give u one last hug. Sorry I didn't notice the signs while u were alive

Sometimes I think I’m finally getting over u, then I’m right back here writing to nothing.

I miss you, do you think were still soulmates? are u still gonna come back? I miss seeing your smile

Was it all a lie? That seems too elaborate for you to pull off. But maybe you did make it all up.

bub. I’m sorry. Pls call me. I’ll always love you. I’ll never love someone like I loved you.

I search for u in everyone I meet. I never find you. Just pieces of u. Not fully put together.

Ofc I still love you