Unsent Messages

Hey, don’t know if you’ll ever apologize to me for acting so insanely toxic to me, but it’s whatever? i mean it’s really not okay with what you did. you eternally scarred me and turned me into such a monster. you made a little joke about cutting yourself that wasn’t even true. what the fuck is actually wrong with you? you’re the reason i have trust issues, why i’m afraid to take that next step in life, why i linger onto the past, and why i’m scared of people. yes there were people who hurt me even worse, but you stand out. i hate the fact you got away with so much. you ruined my friendship with the person i had left. all because you had something to say. i cant believe i went with what you said. now i’m stuck with all of these feelings that have been bottled up and a messy relationship with the person i loved. i know i shouldn’t blame others for my actions but god dammit you hurt me so badly. i hope you’re happy now, and i hope you remember what you did. your actions are unforgivable. forgive and forget? fuck that. i’ll always remember what you did.