From: ABC
To: B
Date: November 6, 2020, 10:53 pm
I can't help but feel like everything has changed. How we are is different and our conversations a short and awkward because I don't know the boundaries anymore. Not knowing hurts but I'm willing to wait as long as you need. I think deep down I just know that you've already moved on and left and have no place for me in your life anymore. I'm sorry I couldn't have stayed and tried to work things out, maybe you would trust me again and maybe I wouldn't feel this uncertain sadness. Knowing that even though you say you need time your decision is already made. I worry about you a lot, or even just wonder how you are. But its not my place to ask or have that standing your life anymore, the things I know about your present life are simple and general. I just wish we could still stay up till the early hours and spout nonsense for ages without It being forced or awkward, back to when you loved me back.
I'm sorry I wasn't there, and left you to deal with the pain I caused and I wish you the best.
Love you p.b
