i came to a realization last week. i've always thought you were just a fling, no strings. even though i knew i liked you then, it scared me thinking you didn't feel the same. i ruined what we had by being afraid. you really did like me. and now i look back and i just miss you. i realized that you could seriously be the ugliest person, you could do the worst thing ever, you could be at your lowest point, and i would still care and have love for you. ive never thought that about anyone, ive always been so superficial (i hate admitting that) but with you its not like that. i genuinely fell for you and had real feelings. i can't believe it took me this long to realize. i actually loved you.