Unsent Messages

I’m glad I met you, and I’m glad you were my first love. I wish things didn’t go the way they did but i did truly love you. It’s scary going from being your everything to strangers. I wish you had properly said goodbye to me. I wish it wasn’t so abrupt. I wish you’d given me the chance I asked for and saw me that weekend. Saw that we were fine and that you were thinking too deep but it didn’t happen. I’m still upset and I guess I’ll never fully get over you. You were my first love and it’s hard, I told everyone about us. I miss how we were in the beginning and I wish , more than anything , that I could reverse the moment it all went wrong between us. We tried and we tried but I don’t think your heart was all there. I truly hope you find happiness with someone else, someone who will love you just as much as I did and make you 10 x happier than I did. You deserve it. You had the right intentions but I guess I wasn’t the one that could bring that love and affection out of you. I’m sorry for the hurtful things I said to you when we argued and I’m sorry for not being understanding. I wish you didn’t end it so close to my birthday, but i guess you felt it was right. The break up was good for me, I’m finding myself now and I’m finding confidence in myself. I’ve learnt I can’t love anyone else until I love myself. You taught me that. So thank you. For everything. I love you so so much , you’ll always be the one boy I remember forever. My first love.