i’ve tried so hard to let u go. tried to talk to new guys. but they’re not u. why put in effort when it’s not u n won’t be the same as u. u were the first person i could be myself around. u brought happiness into my life. and i always feared if one day we would grow apart. sadly we did. and i miss everything. i’m not the same person without u. u were the first boy that i cried on their shoulder. if i could turn back time and actually tell u how i felt i would’ve instead of being scared to commit to a relationship just cuz u were my best friend. u meant everything to me and u still do. ik if we become close friends again those feelings will never go away. i love u and i hate that i still do. i love u josh. i miss u loser.