Unsent Messages

Sometimes I think abt everything you used to tell me, how you thought I was amazing and all this other shit and sometimes I hate you; you ruined my favourite song for me but I still want you and I hate myself more for that. I know you’re not good for me but I can’t stop thinking about u every fucking day. I wish I was good enough and that you didn’t go and find others to replace me with but deep down I feel as if u don’t think abt her the same way u did for me which isn’t true but when I remember the stuff u’d say to me and I’ve never heard u say to her it makes me happy in the worst way. I know ur probably dating her now and I know that even if it was me u chose you’d still look for others but for one short moment i honestly thought I was the only one who you’d ever think of and the only one you could see yourself with. I always look at your name and contemplate whether I should message u but u never message me anymore so why should I bother. I hope someday you come back to me and I hope you want me back badly and in the best way possible I hope she breaks you’re heart...you deserve it and maybe it’ll teach you something