From: ABC
To: A
Date: January 1, 2021, 11:41 am
I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I cannot remember what we had before. I’m sorry that it causes you so much pain each time I cannot recall. I know you want the best for me no matter what, I also know that it hurts you. I can hear you at night as you mourn the life we had, when you think I’m sleeping, and it hurts because I cannot provide you with the comfort you deserve, for you are deserving of everything. I found the Polaroids of us from before. We were so happy and young, I’m sorry I cannot remember. I’m scared that if I do I will not be able to live up to the standard of who I was before. I’m scared that I am too far gone from who I was and that the feeling you have for me are not for me but for a luckier, happier version of myself. I’m scared that I am not the person that you fell in love with, but a mere stranger with the same face. I’m scared because I love you but I don’t think that the person you love is still alive anymore, that they died in the car accident and all you have left to remind you of them is me.
I’m sorry.
