i still stay alive for you. i cant do it for myself. you were the only one who could help me and even though we ended i still stay alive for you because i know you would still be proud of me if you saw how hard im trying. it hurts so bad to lose you because you were the only one who understood, you were the only one who i ever really tried for. i still love you and i will always be there for you no matter what. i meant it when i told you i would drop anything and everything if you really needed my help. i know that we are better off with what we are now but i cant help but miss you. i always wonder if you cried as much as i did over us, if you cared as much as i did. i guess ill never know.
