Unsent Messages

I hate you for using me whenever you felt alone Cos you knew i’d always have feelings for you. I did everything for you and when I think about it you don’t even know how to get to my house, my birthday, the names of my family or even my dogs name and you’ve never once come to console me or bought me food if I was sad. Meanwhile I know exactly how to get to yours, I know your birthday, I know your family’s names and your dogs name and I bought you food if you hadn’t eaten Even after being broken up and I wrote you a letter and printed our photos for you to keep. What did you ever do for me? Nothing because you never even cared in the first place. I also hate myself for letting myself believe you loved me even a little bit whenever you did the slightest thing to show the tiniest amount of affection. I’ll never let you back in again. You made me feel hard to love and difficult when I was asking for the bare minimum, all I ever wanted was for you to care about me the way I did for you and it hurt so much every time I had to force myself to realise you never would.