Unsent Messages

i love you. you dont know it, and it sucks. it hurt when you said you couldnt vc with me for new years. i cried for an hour straight. i never told you though, you were playing with ethan. i always wanna tell you how i feel but i cant. i cant handle rejections.
if you see this, please snap me and just tell me you like me. you make me feel happy. you make me feel like someone. my moms so toxic and you dont know it. but you still make me happy without even knowing what happens in my household. you make me feel like i actually matter. i havent cut since i met you. over dramatic and cringy, ik. but its the truth. youre perfect for me. i like our matching fits btw. whenever i play a game it reminds me of you. also, youre always on my mind. i cant last literally 5 minutes without thinking ab you. me daydreaming about you makes me smile. ive never done that before. you were the first boy i cried over, you were the first boy i fell really deeply in love with. your personality, your voice, your everything. youre perfect preston. you mean the world to me. keep sending me memes everyday. let me wake up to a meme and lets have 4 hour convos everyday like we did before. i miss it. im never annoyed at you,
ill never be. you overthink ab things that arent true. im not gonna stop talking to you because your friend said the n word. im not annoyed at all the memes you send me randomly. i love it, keep sending them. send me one every hour so i know you think ab me all the time. i want you to look at something and think of me and a memory we had with whatever you looked at. i wanna tell you all of this, but im scared youll reject me and just say “oh i dont like you like that, sorry” like it took me so much time and effort to write this and you give me a 7 word sentence. like no please. you ask me out babes?. im tearing up from this please. anyways, i hope you see this but i hope you dont at the same time.
PLEASEEEEE