i really truly love you. i don't want to fight, i just want to be with you. but things feel bad right now. you don't put in as much effort, you don't seem to care when what you do upsets me. i just miss the effort you put in at first. but i still love you and i am still gonna try because i want to be with you and everything can't always be perfect. everytime you hurt me, i feel myself start to shut down. and i don't want that.