yeah i do miss the friendship a lot and i even remember telling my mom to add ur name to the contact list when i was in the mental hospital so i could have the chance to call u. also tbh ive been wanting to say this for so long but it'd just seem like an excuse but THINGS WOULDNT HAVE ENDED SO BADLY IF MY SISTER DIDNT TYPE WHAT SHE DID. SHE WAS THE ONE TYPING ALL THE PARAGRAPHS BC I WAS JUST CRYING MY ASS OFF AND IF I JUST HANDLED IT ON MY OWN THINGS WOULDVE BEEN SO GOOD. EVEN AFTER U APOLOGIZED I KEPT GOING AND IDK WHY BC THERE WAS NO POINT I SHOULD'VE STOPPED BUT IM STUPID AND I RUIN EVERY FRIENDSHIP I HAVE AND I WISH I DIDNT BC ITS JUST ME AND I WISH I WASNT LIKE THAT.