yeah i do miss the friendship a lot and i even remember telling my mom to add ur name to the contact list when i was in the mental hospital so i could have the chance to call u. also tbh ive been wanting to say this for so long but it'd just seem like an excuse but THINGS WOULDNT HAVE ENDED SO BADLY IF MY SISTER DIDNT TYPE WHAT SHE DID. SHE WAS THE ONE TYPING ALL THE PARAGRAPHS BC I WAS JUST CRYING MY ASS OFF AND IF I JUST HANDLED IT ON MY OWN THINGS WOULDVE BEEN SO GOOD. EVEN AFTER U APOLOGIZED I KEPT GOING AND IDK WHY BC THERE WAS NO POINT I SHOULD'VE STOPPED BUT IM STUPID AND I RUIN EVERY FRIENDSHIP I HAVE AND I WISH I DIDNT BC ITS JUST ME AND I WISH I WASNT LIKE THAT.

i hope you’ll never see this lol but i miss speaking to you. u were the first boy i ever really liked which i know sounds so stupid because we never met (ur fault lol) but i thought that when we first started speaking i would’ve cut you off, idk. i usually do with all the boys i speak to i get so disinterested so easily but you were so sweet to me there was something so different about you. i thought wow someone who actually likes me? but then u switched it up :/ ghosted me and got a gf. i know we weren’t anything serious and u probably thought of me as nothing more than a talking stage to pass time before u find a pretty Asian girl to satisfy ur needs but i didn’t think of u like that. u meant a lot 2 me lol a lot a lot. idk. ur happy now that’s all that matters all i ever want is for people to be happy so if she does that for u then :) no cap ik i was kinda wet when we were speaking LMFAOOOOO gn dyk how embarrassing it is? man called u squish bye LOOOOOOOOL that wasn’t me fam ? but if u ever see this which i hope u won’t. i’ll always miss speaking to u even tho i don’t like u anymore. not like that j as a person. u didn’t do anything but it’s the only way i can, not necessarily get over u, idk how to explain it lol. ik u unfollowed me bc of sophie i don’t even care anymore. ur respecting ur girlfriend and ur relationship and that’s a good thing:) haven’t heard many good things about her tho lol so be careful. as much as i don’t like u anymore i wouldn’t want u getting hurt. and as much as i don’t like you anymore if you imsged telling me u miss me literally ever which i don’t think will happen but oh well i’ll reply and tell u i miss u 2. ok i’m done now. if u read this heyyyyyy lol awkward but i hope u live ur best life. i remember how much time u spent doing ur work in lockdown whilst we were talking so i hope it all pays off for u. have a gd life smelly x
(i put pink bc i think i remember it being ur fav colour)

You talked shit behind my back. I thought you were better than that. Fuck you and fuck your christmas gift

you did promised to not break my heart. why did i trust you? i can't find a way to fix my broken pieces.

THSI IS CHEESY BEWARE IM CHEESY!!!!
my first love. words cant even describe how much love i have for you. i love you and everything about you. your smile, your laugh, your insecurities, everything!!!!! i find everything about you perfect, and you cant change my mind. every-time i talk to you i fall a little harder, and i will continue to do so. i cant imagine life without you. i cant even describe how grateful i am to have met you. you’re such an amazing person and i’m so thankful for you. i get butterflies whenever i talk to you still, they never went away. i still remember the day we met. the day we started talking, the day we started dating. we’ve both been through so much and we’re still here, together. and i’m very thankful for that. i think of you every single day and not a day goes by where i don’t. i’ve never felt this cared for and loved for in a long time, you make me feel so safe. you make me feel like i don’t have to worry what i look like, or about my insecurities, or on how my voice sounds because i know you’d never judge me. that’s how comfortable i am with you!!! i love the way you make me feel, all tingly and appreciated. you make me feel like i’m actually worth something. i love how you’re so comforting and understanding you are. i love the way you call me yours and i love the way you get all over protective over me, even though you know i’m yours. i have such a soft spot for you baby and you know i do. you make me feel so comfortable and appreciated and wanted and worthy of love. i love you. i’ve never thought i’d ever fall for somebody the way i fell for you. i’m so lucky to have an amazing girlfriend like you, and i really hope we continue on forever and ever. ill be with you always. even on the bad days, even on the days where we’re both busy. there’s never been a day where i don’t want to talk to you. you’re my everything. you’re the only person i truly care about. i promise i’ll never leave you baby, you’re stuck with me forever. one day i know we’ll be able to kiss and cuddle and get cute matching pjs together. one day we’ll even have our own house with our pets!!!!! i know some days are hard but i know we’ll be able to meet, so don’t get upset over that baby. you’re always in my mind, you always will be. you’re mine, i’m yours. i love you. i love so much baby. you have my whole heart, all of it; im head over heels for you. youre my forever, my baby. i love u!

you're literally the most beautiful girl i have ever seen and i always get butterflies when i hear your name
what i would do to have you close...

i wonder if u remember the floor of your friends apartment when you were messed up and shoving me back into the coats at the bottom of his closet and he was banging on the locked door because i wish i could stop remembering

i need you back i miss you more and more everyday, my life is so bland without your touch.☹️

i hope you can rest easy knowing you were the only one digging my grave.

i miss you baby, i’m sorry

why couldn't you just be real. why couldnt i meet you.

Ur so all over the place

I miss you so much it hurts me so badly but I have to do what I have to do to be okay.

i think my soul was looking for you. my hand reaches instinctively for yours in a dark room.

you were the best thing to ever happen to me,i need you in my life love.please just talk to me again

so many memories i’ve made, all of which were with you.

im still madly in love with you

I miss you honestly. I wish we could talk more, I think you're a good person. I love you.

i miss you…

i wish nothing but the best for u

i’ll always be looking out for you, i’m proud of the person you are, even if it’s not with me :,)

i still wait for you, eventho i probably shouldn't

I'm sad we drifted apart but truly it was the best thing to ever happen. I am my own person now.

Ahhhhhh why do I feel like this?

you're the only friend I need

i secretly like u sm but you’re my best friend and i don’t want to ruin it. ty for matching my freak

Im better now. Can you believe me yet?

U will forever be my best friend and I will always love u and I hope u have an amazing life

you’re my best friend for ever and ever. i love you so much i can’t put it into words.

I know you probably forgot about me a while ago. I wish we were still friends,

i would do anything for you, i miss you more than you know.

back then I felt like I had no choice; now it's clear I did, I just made the wrong one. I'm sorry.

Should I leave? Please tell me if im just chasing false hope or if I actually still have a chance.

i miss your voice. sometimes whenever i get sad i listen to your old voice messages.

I’m scared I’m messing everything up. I don’t know how I keep annoying you.
sorry.

ꕥ I miss you so much, I wish you would love me as much as I love you

i wish you still loved me like how you used too im sorry im jealous i love you

its been almost 8 months, i still think about you every single day. i miss you so much

I miss you so bad it hurts.

thanks for everything I love you so much.

ive loved you for two years and im not sure if that feeling will ever go away.

wish you would give me benefit of the doubt. seems you’ve already decided what kind of person i am

sunshine you taught me never to be desperate for someone who doesnt try <3

Do you even know what you have done? You will haunt me for the rest of my life.

why does it hurt so bad, why am i so jealous? You were never mine

no one makes me smile like you, I love you so much <3

Why on earth is no one else like you? No one. Not even close.

honestly i miss that dumb stuff. someday could we do it again?

I really miss you, I just want you to forgive me

i will love you forever.