Mom, you were the first person i ever loved, ever cared for, and ever missed, you have put me through hell , and im sorry but i do not forgive that, i want to so bad. Dad wants to take me, and i think i am going to let him, it is so hard to get go, i wish you would hear me, you talk down on dad and act like you are any better. I will always love you but i think its for the better that I live with dad until you get better, maybe i will be happy again, maybe not but you need to let me live my life if thats with you or not. I know you will always love me because well im ur only baby but you need to get better if not for me then for you.- your baby girl