Unsent Messages

I miss you like hell. Idk how you're doing but I hope ur fine. I'm trying to be a better person but the thought of you always floods my mind. I'm sorry I had to mess it up. But I wonder if you really did like me the way I liked you. Why couldn't we work things out? Why couldn't have we growth together because of it? Is it because you just wanted to end it? Were you sick of me? You didn't even want to find out what exactly happened. But shit man I still miss you. I tried covering up the feelings with other girls but it always comes back to you. It's always been you. I wish I could start over. You were nothing like what I had experienced before and I wish I can take it all back. But I will heal. I know I will. But I also know I will always be there for you. I will drop everything for you. Hopefully one day in the future, we can be friends again. I hate being strangers but that's how it has to be. I'm still healing. Idk if you're with somebody right now but I hope you're happy. I hope you're consumed in him. I hope he's consumed in you. I hope you guys find love because you are amazing and deserve to be happy. I hope you have a good life. I will forever be here for you. Thank you for everything Ashlyn. You showed me a glimpse of what love feels like.