Unsent Messages

you know what. i hate you so much. we were perfect, we were the couple everyone wanted to be. i felt so loved, i don’t feel love easily but you could express to me perfectly. it’s been a whole ass month and i still can’t over the fact that the last time i’ll ever get to hold you hand was in the back of my jeep. the last time i’ll have your arm around me i didn’t care enough to appreciate it. i was so happy. you made me so happy. i’ve been so shitty i completely lied today. i stopped eating, i can barley sleep without my body pillow being you and i can’t stop comparing your blue eyes to his. he’s so perfect for me, he’s amazing and sweet and everything you weren’t. but i still would do anything in the world to be on you basement couch watching the office or walking to kimmers to get stuff. i’d give up anything that i could to know your still mine. i hate you nathan. i hear you in every single song, there isn’t one i can’t hear you in. even songs we didn’t listen too. did you delete your playlist? i hope you didn’t. i hope your reminded of every song we listened to together and every song that made me feel close to you. just come back.