i see you in my dreams daily. i miss you so much, you have no idea how beautiful you are to me, jaxon. i think you're absolutely stunning, and i love you so so so fucking much. i can't just be your friend, i really can't. i hate this.. i hate it so much. every day i just wait for you to text me, hoping we'll get back together. i miss you so much, i just want my honey back. i want my teddy bear back so fucking bad, i miss you. i miss you so much. and if you end up seeing this by some rare chance, i just hope you're doing as well as you say you are. i love you, jaxon. even though in the end, you really did leave me, i still hope to marry you and have a happy family some day.