From: ABC
To: mom
Date: November 19, 2020, 6:41 am
this isn’t a first love but i have so much stuff to say. man mom , when i was younger i wanted to be you. i wanted your job , hair , lips , body , smile , laugh , & humor. i don’t want any of those things anymore. i want the old you, the happier you. you used to be so happy but now you’re stressed about every single little thing. i was so happy growing up, i wasn’t worried about your flaws. you really have to understand that being on your phone , drinking beer daily , & smoking sm daily isn’t doing anything. youre killing your own body. you’re so manipulative , two-faced , & toxic. i’m trying. i’m trying so much. i cry EVERY NIGHT just so you can yell at me the next day. mom , i know i’m behind in my classes but you don’t know how much pressure they’re putting on me. i’m sleeping during class bc i have to look at a screen for 8 hours , 5 days a week , & no breaks. mom i care and worry about you. you’re putting yourself in so much danger with how much alcohol and tabacco everyday. mom i do care. i’m trying to regain your trust. i know i’m always in my room but that’s bc if i’m out of my room i get yelled at by you and get made fun of by your son. dads the only one that understands, he understands so much. you always have to kick him out , call him names , and call him a bad person. you’re the bad person mom, you don’t know how much pain you put on me , dad , and your son. so much pain that i starve myself bc you call me fat everyday, you were just talking about me like 2 hours ago. i cant trust you, i want you to be like other mothers, happy and able to trust their kid. when you smile i know you’re hurting so much inside. i can tell it in your eyes. man your eyes are so gorgeous. they’re big and pretty. even though you put me threw so much pain i’ll still care. i wish, just wish i could tell you everything. i wish i was able to talk to you about boys, girl stuff, school, & so much more stuff. i cant do that bc you’re so judgemental & selfish. you never let me speak my mind when you have something to say. i hate it.