this is not for my first love, but for my first heartbreak who made me the way i am
5 years i waited for you to gain the courage to be with me and when u did i thought i was in paradise. why did u made me believe u were also in love with me when u just used me? when i talked to u about my home problems you seemed to care but then when i tell u i don’t feel good u just couldn’t understand why i was so sad all the time. you made me be dependent on other people and being scared and having anxiety attacks when someone doesn’t answer me and ignore me on purpose and that fucked me up badly. i’m so fucking needy and i hate it so much. and i know it’s because of u. all the things u did to me u didn’t even say sorry we were bestfriends for 3 years and you didn’t care.
