you'll never understand how much i look for you in the interactions i have with people that aren't you.

one day maybe you will read these, maybe you'll never find these. maybe you've already known about this website and you're waiting for when you can read them, and maybe i'll regret writing these in the case that you find them. but i feel like losing you and losing the friendship i had with you was worse than anything that could have happened, and it's completely at the fault of my own actions. if there is another us out there, even if we aren't together, i hope we're friends. i miss last summer. i miss it so much, and i took everything for granted. you may not like me anymore, and that's okay even if i'm not really okay with it. but i understand it. thank you for everything that you are, thank you for all that you have done. i cherish the summer memories i have with you all the time. more than i should. i hope you will be able to be happy, i hope you will be able to find someone that makes you happy. we aren't that close anymore, but maybe we never were. if you ever need anything, i'm here, just writing everything out. despite everything, being with you was the happiest i've ever been.

Too many things that remind me of you than it should.

You were my whole world
even if I was
only a chapter
in your story.

You probably don’t feel the same way, wish i could see you one more time