Unsent messages to TORIN

Out of the many guys I've liked in my lifetime, I loved you most even if you didn't love me back.

i wish you could’ve loved me the way i needed. we could’ve been great.

i never wanted u to become a distant memory like you have

you make me feel insane. yearn for me, care for me, love me like i know you’re capable of.

I would’ve done long distance for you. #runitback

i don’t know why i miss you

i still think about you everyday

If you see this just know I am okay that you don’t want me anymore. I’ll love you even after I leave

i miss how things used to be i cant move on from these memories bruh

thank you for holding me healing n believing in me when i couldnt, come back soon my love

i miss how things used to be, pls love me like how u used to

I really hope the one i just saw was from you. Pink reminds you of me. I want to ask.

I think it's time i got over you

You had a huge impact on my life.

i still think about messaging you every time i see something that you would enjoy. i miss you.

Thank you for being light during my darkest days. I hope to see you brighter then the stars above <3

i’m fighting a losing battle with myself trying not to care

I love you more than anything, I’m so lucky I get to spend my life with you <3

why are you still giving me space, i want to talk to you why don’t you want to talk to me?

i think i’m in love with you but idk how to say it. you’re my everything

i know you miss me, i miss you more than anything, you were my everything.

Talked to Torin today and i can’t get him off my mind. I'm so scared to say I love you, yet I'm so tempted to say it. When he sent me those videos of him a while back, his eyes appeared very prominent. Not protruding, rather a look in his eye, like he has something that’s holding him back. Fear, anguish, distress is what I see in his eyes. Maybe that's why he appears so cold. No emotions come from him. I feel so bad for him. I know and am fully aware of the fact that Torin has to cope with emotional trauma, and I hope I can help him find a reason to stay here on earth and in this life. Torin has an ethereal soul, which is what I think others fail to see. Cold, but the more you get to know him, the softer he becomes. He has these beautiful coloured eyes, like a mix of grey and blue. I just know they glimmer in the sunlight. I've come to the conclusion that he copes by not expressing emotion. He seems like the quiet kid in the back of the classroom. He’s so so smart, but he just doesn’t try, because in his mind hes been able to convince himself that what he does is so fucking pointless. He feels of no worth or value. That kid is kinda all i have left, i don't think he’s aware of that. Torin is why I wanna keep on living. I really really hope that that feeling is mutual. I wanna see a smile. I love you.

idk but when i first know u my heart really felt happy at first we dont really talk that much we just snap all day but i know this day will come, we became friends or bestfriend rather and the day also came when i started liking you, i dont know but whenever i see your beautiful smile i fell in love every single day but i just wish i didn't tell you that i like you haha i actually regret telling you that i like you because that day i know you just gonna use me and pretend that you really like me even tho you dont, i get that i know im ugly but why are u using me for? i dont even deserve that haha but yea no matter what you do/did i still like you with all my heart and i hope you're hapoy with the girl you always talking about:)