Unsent messages to SER

i hope you find peace for yourself so i can be part of your life.pls don’t hide yk what

Hey, I know I'm probably the last person you want to hear from but firstly I am truly sorry for whatever I did that made you hate me. I just want to say that I'll never stop loving you, everyday I wakeup with the regret of not doing long distance and it tears at me. I regret trying to replace you with a one off empty relationship fuled by alcohol and sex which ultimately destroyed me even more emotionally. There isn't honestly a day that goes by where I don't think about you, but I have no one else but myself to blame for this. Honestly I'd never take myself as one to be typing something like this but hey, fuck it. I miss you so so so much, I honestly wish that I had the balls to send this to you but I know I wont. I just miss everything about you, your smile, your laugh, your humor, everything. Funny enough I haven't been in a relationship since the last one because I constantly catch myself comparing others to you and trying to find YOU in others. Nonetheless I really hope you're doing fine in life and I wish nothing but the best for you in life, for I frankly am struggling to even get out of bed most of the time. I love you so much more than you think, best wishes and see you in the next life