hey babe,

i miss you so much, i miss playing with your hair even tho you hate that, i miss making out with you, i miss petting your cats and being high with you, i miss listening to your mom ramble on about spiritual stuff, i miss hearing you talk about plants and rocks, i miss cuddles, i miss being on the train for 3 hours just to see you, i miss that feeling in my stomach when the train is about to arrive, i miss seeing you stand there so awkwardly, i miss everything about you, i miss sending you horny memes, i miss massaging your back bc of your shitty way too soft matrass, i miss giving you belly rubs, i miss hugging you when you're having a breakdown, i miss laughing at stupid shit, i miss suddenly realizing it's already 7am and debating if we should sleep or just stay awake, i miss everything about you

i really hate myself for breaking up, even tho it was probably for the best, i want you back so badly

i love you so much