Hey sabs. im writing this because I can't let you know what im thinking at the moment. I think im finally realizing that you are slowly losing interest in me and is falling out of love. It pains me to feel this kind of process happening right now. Im not really mad about this or scared, im just preparing myself for it to come. my insides are rotting and I can barely breathe at times. maybe we weren't really meant to be. it really hurts me to know that it might actually be the end of us. those 4 years with you was really jumpy and toxic. I hope we learn from each other. thank you for everything.