hi pipes, i love you. I don’t think you understand how much you mean to me. you’re my best friend in the whole world. my twin flame, my family loves you a little more than they love me I’m pretty sure. you’ve got a good heart, you’re loved by so many people. you’ve changed the way I look at life and made my life 100% better. thanks for so many laughs and screams and cry’s you mean the world to me . love you forever and always

i’m so tired of being in such a dark place and i wish i could let u go but i literally can’t and it’s so fucking stupid that i keep trying to hold onto u when ik ur feeling fine and i hate this stupid fucking website that i check every single day when i said i wouldn’t and i still cry over u and that stupid boy so much ever since i first heard about it and i wish love didn’t have this much power over me. i’m never getting married. the only thing love has taught me is that i never know how to let go and that it’s always gonna end in pure discourse and hatred. i’m fine i’m just venting

Thank you for being one of my closest friends. thank you for being so nice. i appreciate you so much, more than you'll ever know. thank you for being apart of my safe space. i love you pip.

i’ve had to mute everyone i see posting ab u because just seeing you makes my stomach drop and i don’t even know why since i don’t have any problems with u at all and am trying to leave past stuff in the past. keyword trying. i still just block out anything ab u any time i get the chance and i wish that wasn’t how it had to be. i wish i could see ppl post about u and be unphased. getting over ppl is a longer journey than i signed up for. i hate romance

i am so proud of you. your heart is beautiful. this next chapter of your life will be great. you deserve someone as amazing as you are. love didn’t hurt you, he did. remember that.

i want you here with me again. no matter how hard i try to push you out of my mind you’re still here. Piper i still love you

you broke me and expected me to let you continue to hurt me. i am all glued back together now please stop

i woke up and took my last midterm and realized i was finally over you. i don’t know why today of all days but it feels nice. i’m sure i’ll still text you on your birthday but i’m not sure yet.

i saw something you would have liked when i was christmas shopping yesterday and i thought about getting it and putting it in ur mailbox but obviously i can’t do that . i want u back in my life and for us to forget about our past and i know how impossible that is to happen but we were so close and now we’re being involved with other people and it doesn’t feel right. at all. it’s not fun anymore

yes i saw it. i dont want u back in either bc it would be too toxic but i miss u too. i promise i’m still me i’m sry for all the pain i’ve caused within u in this past wk.. i didn’t know how bad u were doing. i also really truly wish that ur well. i wasn’t gonna put in a submission but idk i felt compelled to. my mom got me a little toucan toy the other day :’)

checking this website every day is way too bad for my mental health,, i’ve been trying to be nice through all of these bc i’ve learned that life is too short and i don’t want to waste it being negative / not being a positive light whenever i can be and if that came across as manipulation then i am really truly sorry. seriously. — this isn’t some entry that’s trying to mess with ur mind like i’m seriously sorry if any of this has come off as manipulation. those were not my intentions whatsoever,, i just don’t want to spend every single one of my days being bitter i guess. it just sounds like a really scary life. seeing everything u have to say ab me including all the fuck yous and how terrible i am is just not really that good for my health and so this is going to be my last entry; i’m not gonna open this website ever again after this. or at least i’ll try not to. i’ve been checking it every day. all of this is so bad for our mental healths and we both knew this indirect communication was unhealthy from the start and i’m just putting an end to it so we can move on and try and stop hurting. i hate how everything turned out. pls eat everyday

i still think of you everyday, even though i know things didn't work out for a reason. in another life maybe we could've been together

I know they say friends don’t always last forever. It was different for us. Or at least I thought. I could never say any of this to you because now I know our friendship meant almost nothing to you. But thank u for making my life 100x better.

i folded pretty fast .. literally checking the site the morning after i said i wouldn’t. u say i have good self control but i don’t think u understand how difficult it was for me to not txt u on thanksgiving for the entire day. it was so hard. i’m really lost and just feel like i’ve found myself in way too deep in so many situations this year and i’ve gotten to a point of no return in me trying to tell ppl i just need to be alone / take time to myself because ik the only thing that accomplishes is hurting others and i don’t want anyone to hurt. this year is just a year of hurting for everybody it seems. i was saying to my friend last night that i wish i could just cut off every single girl friend i have just to take some time to myself but i don’t have any guy friends and since i do school online i worry that it would feel like i’m homeschooled w no friends all over again and that’s too scary for me to dive into rn. so u say i need time to be alone and i would agree but the only thing that would come out of me doing that is me hurting people i care about + me laying in bed all day and i hate to say it but for a few months now i’ve been escaping all of my sadness by overbooking myself with my friends so i don’t have a single spare moment to actually reflect on literally anything. and i like it that way even tho ik how bad that is. i just quit my job because that was the only place i had to face my feelings by being alone so often so it scared me and i put in my two weeks and went right back into overbooking myself. catching feelings does nothing except for ruin good friendships so ik u say u wish u could like ppl easily but i think it’s a grass is greener situation. like yk that boy u said u were talking to before he started yapping ab his mental health? y’all were friends and had a good connection and now y’all don’t even talk anymore, yk? it seems like that cycle just keeps viciously repeating for me and it’s not even remotely worth it anymore. you just end up losing everyone and then get their friends mad at u which weighs heavy on ur conscience for way too long. i accept ur apology by the way. i’m sorry too. seeing the anger driven entries was the only impression i had of how u felt and that short little letter where u told me that i’m not the person u thought i was and that i could throw away ur sweatshirt also was the only impression i had so i thought u had like ,, an almighty burning hatred for me. u said i don’t even know who i am but i honestly do know who i am pretty well it’s just that too many things got fucked this year and now we’re all way too far in. i’ve gotten into horoscopes by the way. i’m an aries rising. can’t say i’m too surprised. i mean if you wanttttt you can look it upp bc theyre actually pretty accurate and fun to look into. okay i’m gonna end the entry here

I LOVE YOU PIPS

do you love him more then you loved me

ik your being distant. but you realize ignoring yourself from ppl dose not make you get better.

I can’t get myself to like anyone new. What was it about us that worked so well when it did?

i would still marry you in 10 years if you asked

i’m drunk, i love you forever, don’t come back bc it’s selfish of me to say that i want you to

i wish we were still best friends. how many summers have i thought about texting you?

i wish i could tell you the meaning to every song that makes me think of you

i hope you are doing well, i miss you so much

show me a sign you still care

Why are you still holding onto a grudge from 3 years ago

I thought I’d get over you sooner than this.

the cirlce won’t stop, only you could understand

I want to be in your life, exist in your orbit, as long as you'll have me my pretty lady.

i like like you too

i love you. and i love ur voice memos. ur always my #1.

you’re always the first person i want to talk to when i wake up

i miss when we were so in love, what happend?

stop being so confusing and tell me if you want me or not

miss u sometimes.
i don’t think anyone will love me like u did.
never got that squishmallow.

I wanna talk but i wont say. Ive learned my lesson and ill always be willing to make it up to you

You breathe life into my lungs. I hold you like water in my hands praying I don’t let a drop fall

my biggest regret will be pushing you away, the person i care about the most

you’re such a great friend and i really hope that doesn’t change

sorry theres no way for us to work out

I love you so much but sometimes I feel like you just don't really like me at all

thanks for being someone i loved

i wish i could read your mind

do you ever think about me? i miss my best friend.

i love you, i hope this works

I think about that night on the roof a lot. You were my person. I miss you.

you’re perfect and i’m sorry

i cannot express how much i love you

I don’t understand, I don’t know what to do.

i need you more then anything and it’s my fault you aren’t here

I would have never done this to you.