Unsent messages to PHIL
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: October 29, 2023, 1:42 pm UTC
i’m sorry i couldn’t be enough for u.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: October 22, 2023, 10:23 am UTC
I will find you in every lifetime. Maybe it will be different next time
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: October 9, 2023, 7:05 pm UTC
u may not believe me when i say i love you, but i do, more than myself.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: October 3, 2023, 12:42 am UTC
You tried to hurt me. I moved on. I’m happy. I love my life. YOU DID NOT BREAK ME. IM STILL HERE.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: September 26, 2023, 6:55 am UTC
will love you forever but you make me hurt for that love
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: August 6, 2023, 3:54 am UTC
i’m so in love with you and i think i always will be
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: January 9, 2021, 1:36 pm UTC
we met at such a strange time in our lives. timing is a bitch. i feel like i’ve lost you when i never really had you.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: December 27, 2020, 3:32 am UTC
wish we could talk again and let things be like 2016. i still very miss you and even when we played Minecraft together. i hope you're fine, i'm not
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: December 8, 2020, 12:14 am UTC
hey dad. i really wish you cared about my mental health and my feelings in general. or that you recognized my efforts and my hard work instead of constantly telling me i have to do more and more and more. i'm not failing my classes, i'm actually doing much better than i was. but for some reason you refuse to acknowledge the hard work i put in and instead ask me why i'm not living up to impossible standards. anyways, i also wish you accepted me for who i am. understood that i will be happier following my heart and loving who i love than being shoved into a box and forced to change my heart. i cant control that, but you don't see that. i'm sorry i cant be a perfect, straight, religious little daughter like you want, but ever since ol' big bro moved out and you didn't have all his imperfections to focus on, you've really put the pressure on me. stop using me as a punching bag, realize that i cant control certain things like my sexuality and my mental health.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: December 7, 2020, 10:12 pm UTC
i fucking hate you. you really know how to make someone feel like they don’t belong, like they are unworthy of any type of love. i hate myself because of you.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: November 30, 2020, 8:39 am UTC
I wish we took a chance. I wasn’t ready before but now I am. I know i’m too late though, and for that i’m pissed at myself for letting you go.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: November 30, 2020, 8:19 am UTC
I wish I let myself love you, but I was always too scared. I hate to say this but I think i’m ready now, but I know it’s too late... and it’s all my fault.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: November 26, 2020, 12:00 am UTC
I don’t even know your fav colour even though you’re my best friend ... well I guess I just wanted to say that I always had some sort of feelings for u and that one night I stayed over , when we nearly kissed, i did feel something . But now u have her and I want u to be happy cause I some sort of love you!
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: November 24, 2020, 4:17 am UTC
I miss you. So much. I need you more than ever right now. I’ve made so many bad decisions to try to get you back but none of this is working.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: November 20, 2020, 6:56 am UTC
you broke me so bad. How could you have cheat on me and act like everything was fine . Fuck you. its been two years and you still cant keep me out of your mouth.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: November 20, 2020, 4:08 am UTC
I’m grateful for what we had, the things we learned together, and the way we’ve grew apart. I’ve become a better person and I hope you have too.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: November 15, 2020, 8:12 am UTC
i hate to say this, but i cant get you out of my head. i just keep coming back to you... are you my soulmate?
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: November 8, 2020, 3:17 am UTC
I really did love you.. I always had a hunch you didn’t love me back, but you were great at lying and making it seem like what we had was real.. I never understood why you felt the need to cheat on me tbh, because I always told you I just wanted you to be happy.. even if it wasn’t with me. It would’ve hurt like hell, but it was a lot better than the embarrassment I faced when your infidelity surfaced. I thought it would be you and I in the end, but you had other plans. I miss you sometimes but I know I’m better off. I have to be better off, I gotta close that chapter for good. Thank you for showing me what I don’t want in a man. You were just a little bitch.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: October 16, 2020, 11:04 pm UTC
I‘m sorry I didn’t tell you what a great guy you are, back then and that you deserve someone who gives you everything. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with you, it was my fault because i couldn’t let my walls down.
I’m also sorry that the first time you decided to get serious with someone it got so messed up.
I was so happy when I saw that it didn’t ruin relationships for you.
And I’m sorry for the way things ended.
I hope you find your one in a million.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: October 2, 2020, 4:42 am UTC
I wish you would know that I was willing to change for you and you still mean so much to me. I love you still and wish you could text me. I treated you with so much love but I think you were too young to realize. Love you so much. Forever.
From: ABC
To: Phil
Date: September 13, 2020, 2:12 am UTC
It hurts me that you lied when you said you would always be there for each other. I wish we weren't strangers now.
