Unsent messages to PAYTON

even though we don't talk anymore, you'll always be my first choice

I’m sorry I took you for granted.I miss how I felt right at home with you.I miss you.

i wish i belonged to you :) b you’ll never know it

i miss you and i feel so guilty for that. it’s all so unfinished

I hope in another universe we r tg agn in ur kitchen.

i loved you so much. and i still do. im sorry for everything.

i loved you sm. im so sorry for everything sweet girl.

I thought we could have made this work

I love you forever and I hope that we are forever:)

I thought we were forever. Now you don't know?

I’ve never stopped thinking about you I miss you

i wish i took you to prom <3

I wish you felt the way I felt the same way.

i wish u knew how much u hurt me. i miss my sweet boy.

i am so in love with u

I love you like an abandoned dog loves it’s owner. Your delicate memory remains unscathed; my mind replaced your flaws with eternal goodness. The realization that you’re gone is suffocating. Why did my mind make divinity out of your adequacy?

To my dear fluffy, I do miss what we had but I can’t ever imagine being with you again. We’re different people and I just can’t handle you, I hope you understand that I did actually love you. I’m just not mentally ready to accept that you loved me. I still love you though.

The way you've been ignoring my messages recently makes me question your love.it seems to have gotten worse since we hung out last month.

It seems like we are in different spaces now, different worlds but I am grateful we got to exist in the same at one point.

Creo que es el momento de dejarte ir, pero, luego de estar contigo 3 años apoyándote en todo es difícil de decir adiós.

i love you so much and i dont know how to tell you, youre my best friend and i dont want to ruin anything between us, you mean so much to me and i want you to be my girlfriend but you just see me as a friend thats a girl.

I never loved you. I only felt obsession. I was obsessed with your attention and your love and more importantly I was obsessed with manipulating you.

well i know i never had you but i always loved you and yet i lost you to someone better i'm broken but fine

i miss you some days i miss the happiness i had with you but we were to young and weren’t ready for a relationship you’ll always have a special place in my heart i’m happy your finding your person but i still kinda love you and i hope she makes you happy you deserve it

Te quiero decir que siempre te ame y te amaré,gracias por sacarme una sonrisa cuando estaba triste fuiste uno mi primer amor y te amo te amo como nunca e amado a alguien gracias porque por ti sigo viva eh llorado por ti me rompiste el corazón pero todavía te amo ya no te amo como antes pero todavía te quiero es muy díficil para mí aceptar que estés con otra persona pero algún día tenía que pasar tenías que irte eh encontrar a alguien pero no creí que fuera tan rápido ... Estoy conociendo a otra persona que la conoces es Jackson pero créeme que todavía hay un parte en mi corazón que te quiere me eh imaginado me eh creado historias en la cabeza contigo un futuro contigo unas cosas que tal vez no van a pasar pero igual te quiero mucho mucho mucho mucho mucho. Espero estar con Jackson y amarlo como te llegue a amar Ati te amo y gracias porque por ti todavía estoy viva gracias aveces te odio pero también te amo ojalá y no dudes con esa perra barata

I love you so much and you have no idea how much you have saved me this year. I hope you are beating the battles you don't tell me about :)

You not loving me almost killed me. I look down and the scars show the story of the things you caused starting with scars and ending with empty pill bottles but no matter what I love you

hey payt, again. i can’t get over u,,hhh. part of me feels like u were just lying to let me down easy when u told me to wait. that part of me also thinks that u totally forgot that we had a thing and jus rnt interested in anything but friendship anymore. maybe u even think that i dnt like u anymore, so ur alr over me/ trying to get over me. but yea idk so thats why im scared to bring it up. i literally talk to u every single day, but still it’s very platonic. i dnt mind it at all i actually rly lov talking to u, bht its just the way im actually in love eith u. like actually. ik it sounds crazy but i just know i am. and i cant say anything ab it cuz i dnt wanna weirf u out, scare u, stress u out, etc. rhis whole thing is dum but its jus my place to ramble on about my feelings for u with a very low but possible chance of u seeing it lol. yea anyway yhat was a mess but basically payton i love you and i want u, i’ll wait for u forever

i am mentally drained, i feel so sick and tired all the time. I stay up all night thinking of you. U were my safe place.

I told u everything but u still left, im still in love with u, u said u want to forget about everything but i need u. im sorry

i really hope things workout. it could be right person wrong time, idk. everything about you is perfect to me. the screaming at basketball games because you love it so much , the random laughs with you and micheal, ur red/brown hair, all of your freckles, you’re smile, all of you.

You're the reason I am the way I am today and I still regret the things we did but I still can't let you go

Hey, I'm sorry. But it's just what I felt I had to get off my chest at that time... ya know? maybe you dont. Idk. But I had to get rid of it cause dumb shit eats me up inside. My mistake, I totally get it. But hey- we all make mistakes, its part of growing up lmao... Maybe we could start new? lmk:)

payt,, i think imf falling in lov with you. ik said ur not ready yet, but i’ll literally wait as long as i hav tto,im in lov wivf you

its me again ofc. you make me so happy its not even funny. i dont know if you feel the same and thats what makes me angry. you act different everyday. you say you dont believe in love anymore after your breakup but you wont give it a chance. im cool with being friends but more would be nice. its a good friendship dont get me wrong. its just that i feel theres a connection there. i know you feel it too bc you literally told me. is it just gone already? am i just a back up for when youre bored? give me the details before i go insane. until then.

Te conoci hace unos meses y ahg, no se, tienes algo que enamora a cualquiera, no se como te lastimaron tanto, se que algun dia te conocere, pero no sera como en las historias de wattpad que te enamoras de mi, solo sere una simple fan mas, realmente le rezo al cielo para que te pueda conocer.
En tan poco tiempo te convertiste en alguien importante para mi, y si caes, caemos juntos.
Realmente me inspiras a seguir mis metas pero, no soy linda ni eso, es dificil verte al espejo y ver algo que no te gusta, a mi no me gusta mi cara, mi cuerpo, no me gusta nada de mi, se que lo puedo cambiar pero ahg, ahora no tengo ganas de hacer nada, les miento a mis padres diciendo que me va bien en la escuela cuando no es asi.
Es tonto imaginarme un futuro a tu lado donde soy feliz.
Desearía estarte abrazando en este momento.
Solo me queda decirte que te amo mucho, siempre lo hare, te apoyare aun así tengas 60 y yo 58 jaja, xoxo.

if only you knew. maybe you’ll see this, maybe you’ll know it’s me, maybe you feel the same. but probably not

I saw your little head a year ago and I would never have thought you would become so important to me. Now I try to forget you, but it’s so hard, you’re really in my thoughts, all the time, you’re never teasing me alone. I’d like to meet you so much, you’re not my first love, but you’re someone who’s become very important to me and I’d have done everything I can to meet you, but I can’t because a plane ticket doesn’t cost $1. I think you were and you’re one of my biggest favourite, I was attracted to your way of being (you’re so funny). Really thank you because you brought me out of a phase where I was sad and also thank you for making me meet great people.

I’m sorry for being mean, i didn’t know what to do with my feelings. i still love you, you will always be in my heart.

you were my first love. i lost you but didn’t bother finding you. i wish we could’ve gone farther than acquaintances

you don't know much about my feelings but you've made me happier than anyone else has in a long time and i need you to know that in the book, it was you all along.

Dear, Payton
for the short amount of time I felt infinite. You were the first to ever meet expectations of being the person I wanted. Until I said something that completely threw us off. I miss your big laughs and your cute smile. Let me know when you want to call all over again. Forever and always,
I

I love you so much but I don't know why you have to lie to me about the littlest things knowing I have trust issues:(

I miss you, I miss us. But that one message, that one "We are over sry" ruined my life. I want you back god dammit.
-Ur "ex"
Ava C.

i’ve had a crush on you for so long. i wish i would’ve told you sooner. you’re slipping away and it’s my fault i’m sorry. i love you and i will always think about you.

You give me happy energy. Keep that energy when growing up. There’s not many people who keep that big of a smile on their face.

I wish I knew where it all went wrong. You said you didn't want to but you sure made it look easy. Nonetheless, thank you Mowgli. I'll miss you.

I am so sorry for breaking our bond I hope you the best and I miss you. But it's ok you were the only person I ever felt like that with and its sucks to know you never felt the same.

i know that you want nothing to due with me anymore but i’ll always wait for you. there’s not a day that goes by and i’m not thinking about you. i love you forever even though you gave up on us.

i know that you want nothing to due with me anymore but i’ll always wait for you. there’s not a day that goes by and i’m not thinking about you. i love you forever even though you gave up on us.