Unsent messages to N.V

I’m sorry I was never able to speak to you. Honestly, I don’t know what happened but I’ve never been nervous like that in my life. But. I messed it up. That was not me. I wish I could’ve done it over again. I wish I actually could speak to you. I can’t. Everyday I regret not taking my chance. I look back at the videos of you and I can’t BELIEVE I missed my opportunity. I can’t stop thinking about you. WHY WAS I SO WEIRD FCK!!!!!! ugh. I’m sorry!