Unsent messages to NELLIE

i hope things start looking up for you. and i hope i can have the chance to know more about you.

i wish i could list all the thing i like about you. Your my bsf

My soulmate that never was…

Not a day goes by…

I.love.you.still.

I think about you everyday. I’ll never forgive myself for leaving you twice. Je t’aime.

I'm sorry I abandoned you when you needed me and I'm sorry I can't face you anymore, my love.

i’ve never felt this way about a person before, i just hope something comes out of it

please be the one.

I miss you sm, you're my forever bsf, im upset how you moved schools, i want you to know ily.

Do you still like me? ‘Cause I do.

My heart aches with the thought of you…

I like you…a lot.

i hope you know how much i love having you as my best friend.

I miss talking about punk music with you

Maybe you don’t have to be here for my life to be complete. I still wish you all the best.

You never leave my mind. I’m sorry for everything.

dreamt about you again last night… I’m sorry we broke up, I didn’t want to.
I miss you :(

i miss you

I'm so glad you're doing good.

my sister, i love you so much. you're my everything and losing you would be losing myself. please always remember you are worth it, beautiful, strong, powerful. i can't wait to show my children our pictures and say this is the thing in my life that kept me going. i love you

Hey Nellie...i dont know where to start but i always wanted to say this to you i love you from the bottom of my heart, im sorry for being hella awkward, i really want to hang out with you at school but im too shy to even look/stare at you. You're so pretty, i want to watch the sunrise with you, i would honestly do anything just to hang out with you for a day or more. But sometimes i feel like im bothering you..that's why i decided to stop talking to you for a while, i didnt mean anything bad about it tho. I just felt like it's better to take a break sometimes. You literally have the perfect nose like wth dude haha..remember when i went to ur house dude that was fun like no joke tho, when one of ur dog jumped on me like damn u was right, she tall af. Oh and remember when you showed me ur cows like THEY BIG AF!! oh oh oh and when we walked with ur dog...that was awkward yet so relaxing just to be alone with you. Sometimes i just feel like im no good for you, i feel like a failure, if i compare my life with yours. Mine sucks, i feel like you never been honest with me about ur feelings. If im gonna make it works for the both of us let me be with you, i dont want you to be sad, i mean ofc it's normal to be sad sometimes. But if there's anything you wanna talk about whether is about your friends,school,me,family etc i will listen. No matter how long it takes you to feel better i will always be here, right next to you. But please let me know if you are hurting instead of hiding it from me. If you dont feel like talking about it to me.. atleast talk with ur friends about it or ur parents. It's sad just to see you being sad. Days go by i barely dream about you like i used to, it doesnt mean i dont like you anymore. It feels like ur the one whom trynna walk away from me lol.

I'm sorry for what you were caught in between and for all of the things that happened between us as kids. I hope that even though you've been through so much, you're coming out even stronger. You deserve strength and patience. Thank you for standing by my side.