Unsent messages to NEA

I’ll always love you regardless of where we’re standing.

Hi! I may not be able to talk to you right now, but please know that you own half of my soul.

i will love you forever

i hope you win your silent battles

Oh lord. How do i even start. I have loved you from the first day we met. You lit me up when i was surrounded with darkness. You don't probably even know it. Im too afraid to tell you that. I fell in love with everything about you. Oh god those eyes. They are like the ocean. Your hair is so soft and beautiful. Your laugh is gorgeous. Your personality is the sweetest ever. I love you endlessly. The thing just is that you are straight and have a boyfriend. Im just a friend of yours and i know that you don't want or thing anything else about me or us. I love youth my god. You have hurt me so much and i just push that away because i love you too much. Im such a toxic person that i would want to see you sad rather than happy with someone else than me. And that is what's happening right now. Im literally jealous of you having other friends and a boyfriend. Why wasn't i enough? It sounds so stupid. I can't explain all this my feelings are a mess and ugh. I love you. And i think that i forever will.

So thank you. Thank you for letting me know how love feels like. Even though you didn't respond to mine.