Unsent messages to NANA

you don’t know how life is without you days go by misses you and not a thought leaves my mind about you i miss you so much nana i miss the christmases we had together with the family you really kept the family together without you we would be nothing i love you millions nana i’ll see you soon??

even tho we hurt eachother a lot u cant leave with ou me and i cant leave with out you we are slowly healing the small peaces we broke in eachothers heart i have and will always love you, yours B

i miss you. i know i am never going to see you again, but it still feels like you are going to come back. i wish i called you one last time and that i got to spend one last moment with you. i will love you forever and i hope that one day we will meet again. love you always

como deseo poder decirte esto en persona, pero no puedo. te extraño. ya se va a cumplir 9 años en unos días. te amo nana, te necesito mas que nunca. no se como lo e echo sin ti pero no es nada fácil. las personas dicen que se te hace mas fácil con el tiempo, pero no. aprendes a como vivir con el dolor de tu partida, pero no se hace mas fácil. es algo que no se puede explicar. te amo nana. siempre.

I'm over you now. Isn't that good? But I still miss talking with you. And off course the others. It's going really well in school too, but i feel like i dont fit in my new class.
Hope to see you soon.
Alex

i'm sorry that i didn't answer the phone nana.
I love you and miss you more than you could ever know.

i miss you so much. im sorry i didn’t come visit more. i thought you would always be there. i’m sorry i didn’t notice the pain you were in.

i miss you so much! im so sorry i couldn’t visit you more often. i always thought you would just be there. i’m sorry i couldn’t see the pain you were in

i miss you so much! im so sorry i couldn’t visit you more often. i always thought you would just be there. i’m sorry i couldn’t see the pain you were in

I hope choosing him over ur friends who have been there for you this whole time was worth it. u just lost everyone and to think that u could get us back just like that is just hilarious. this is ur fault. i don't ever wanna hear from u again. u messed up and i aint never coming back. i loved u like a sister. u were my bestfriend. me and my family did everything under the sun for u. we lied, fought, took care of u so dont u ever say i didnt do shit u ungrateful brat. u think ur grown but ur not. we tried to handle this the mature way and talk amongst ourselves but u just love to get others involved including the adults. u say ur grown yet u need an adult with u at all times to back u up. u know ur wrong for that. u know that u did. we could all just expose u but we're better than that. lmao have fun with no friends to run to. once he finally realizes that ur a literal psychopath and a crazy ass bitch and leaves ur ass, who u gonna run to? no mf one. and just bc u wanna host a "conference" with a mediator dont mean u mature. and to think u are is soooo funny. u know ur in the wrong bc u and ur mom blocked all of us. lmao ur so spoiled and it shows. u def showed ur true colors to everyone that backed u up. bye bitch. i hate u. dont ever come back when u finally realize that were the ones down for u from the start. gtfo. im done with ur bullshit.

I want to hug you I want to say I love you but I can’t. I just want to go back. I want to see you again

How did you do it, all that time in pain but you still smiled. I miss you, it’s getting harder each day to keep fighting and I don’t know if I’ll make it to 2021

hey it's me again. i miss every moment we created, i miss how happy i was. im finally starting to move on. im slowly healing and i hope you too. may you find someone who can keep makes you feel contained. goodbye forever.

I've been at my new school a little over a month now. I feel like I have lost you, so i started ignoring you. I'm sorry. I wanna tell you I miss you every other minnute. This wouldn't be happening if i didn't sleep over that night. Love, Alex