I wonder if you'll ever see this since you don't really look at socials much. But I love you and I'm scared that I'll fuck us up. I think sometimes if I could go back to not say yes to you asking me to be your girlfriend I would. Not because I don't want to but because I think I'm not confident in myself enough to not hurt whoever I date and you out of everyone doesn't deserve that. I lash out easily when I'm scared and I always feel deservingly undeserving. And you. You are this perfect angel and no one deserves such a beautiful thing. I have never had to ask you to be emotionally empathetic with me or love me. You simply do it. You are in every aspect the one I've always wanted and asked for. But yet I hate it. I hate it. I hate how I never believed in right person wrong time and yet you make me believe it so. I hate how when I meet such an amazing person, I feel that I am not worthy and that you deserve better. I am trying to be that better for you. I'm afraid it won't be enough. I'm afraid that I won't have enough time to become that better. I love you forever and ever. I don't get butterflies when I see you because you are home to me. I don't get nervous to come home; I feel warm and comfortable. God I love you so much please don't slip through my fingers like sand. I will do everything I can to hold onto you and love you with all of my being. Please know that you are everything to me and you are my heart.