Unsent messages to MELANIE

I miss being friends, you made my heart race and me cry a lot and you don’t know how much. You think I was the bad one and blamed everything on me, I almost ended it because of you. Why’d you lie so much? You thought my life was perfect when it was nowhere near that.... I’m more hurt than you would ever think, but I still love you. I just hope you don’t hurt me again... you know you were my only friend. I love you

i cant believe i was by your side even though you were always in the wrong.I helped you when you got in a fight and talked to you so you felt better.you can’t just leave your friends after you get a boyfriend and mostly when they gave advice to you.i literally can’t believe i ever spent money on you.never again.

hey girl. we used to be close, but for some reason were not anymore. I'm sorry if i did something to hurt you.

it’s been 3 years you’ll never believe me but i never did anything you just decided to believe them but yk i would too so i really don’t blame you but i do miss you seeing you live your life happy it just makes me think on what i missed out on but i hope you’re doing ok :)

The first time ever I saw your face,I thought the sun rose in your eyes and the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave to the dark and the endless skies, my love

so basically you’re dating my crush(well he’s not anymore..)i never told you because that would create a lot of drama.its the last thing you needed after all that craziness happened in school.it was before you started telling me that you had feelings for him.i even helped you get with him.and i honestly feel like such a bad friend but i can’t control my feelings.i’m sorry.i really am.happy for you guys.

Sabes, nuestra generación está acostumbrada a enamorarse de personas incorrectas, eso no quiere decir que la persona correcta no llegara, date tiempo y espacio que cuando menos sientas esa persona va a llegar, mientras tanto estaré aquí para ti siempre que me necesites, escuchandote las noches que sean necesarias, te quiero cara de guanabana.

Muchas veces he pensado en dejar este mundo, perl la vrd es que no tengo la valentia para hacerlo, tengo una familia que me ama a pesar de mis defectos, unas mascotas a que necesitan quien las cuide, amigos que siempre estan hasta en los peores momentos. Simplemente no puedo dejarlos a ellos con una culpa tan grande, creeran que fue su culpa por no apoyarme o quien sabe que, pero la vrd es q no me dare por vencida y luchare con mis bajones de depresión, y seguire adelante.
Psdt: no todo esta perdido, tu eres el cambio en esta sociedad.

Saben la vida es una mrd, la sociedad es aun peor porque no acepta a las personas como son. Oigan la ropa , el maquillaje no tiene género, no por ser hetero, bi o trans te hace menor que todos los demás, yo soy bi y la vrd me vale una mrd la opinion de los demás, pq lo unico q hacen bien es criticar y no actuar, y asi es como esta un país ahora, con solo palabras en el aire que nunca se cumplen, cuando se deberian tomar decisiones importantes para la sociedad y el país.

Si alguna vez te sientes solo/sola y sientes que todo el mundo esta en tu contra, que no te valoran, que dicen que no eres nadie, pues dejame decirte que si eres alguien que va a cumplir sus sueños, que va a callar a todas esa bocas que alguna vez solo han hablado cosas negativas de ti. Demuestra que vales mucho porque yo creo en ti.

I don't even think that u know this page or that u will ever read this text. however, i want to thank u for all u did. you are an amazing person and absolutely deserve the world. i really like to think back to all the great memories and funny moments we had. one day u said that u worry that u will never find anyone. i don't think that u have to worry abut that because if a man doesn't realize how prescious u are, he doesn't deserve u. i hope that we will still exprience some great memories together and that we stay in contact because it's a pleasure to be around you.

I hate you. not even gonna hesitate I do a lot. you use me all the time and you don't even regret it. like wtf dude I opened up to you, you were my best friend and you betrayed me all because of your stupid racist, homophobic boyfriend. life how can you not see it, are you blinded by his love or what? you're better than this dude. and ik im not one to tell you who's bad or good for you because I don't have good experience but you do Melanie. you know what its like to be loved like no other and I don't. and you helped me when I told you I didn't and you said you'd never leave and you did. when you met him you left me and in pain. and you even apologized bro like cmon your just manipulating me like what's wrong with you? you're not the person I thought you were. at all

you’re so beautiful and i always find myself comparing everything you do to myself. ill never be as pretty or as funny or as good. i wish there was something i could do

hey melanie, i think i'm starting to like others now. i haven't dreamt of you in a long while. i still feel your loss but it's not as bad. the thought of her makes me happy. makes me grin with a dopy smile. the smile that i can't help. the one that was reserved only whenever i talked about or saw you. hey mel, thank you.

I don’t know how to say this but, every time I look at you, I can’t help but smile...you can do the bare minimum and somehow, I like you even more.

Hey Melanie, Sorry this isn't on your bday but it's for you, a text here just for you :D Thank you for helping me throughout the years you da BEST :)

You can talk cyd we can talk like you want. artificial and fake easier I see. I’m ready for the hard conversations though.

idk if ur gonna see this but you're so so so pretty and motivated and hard working :(((. u posted a tik tok abt how brown girls do it better and i deadass gasped bc ur so stunning mwah

Te amaba, en serio te amaba pero no pudiste notarlo, eras lo mejor de mi vida y espero que te vaya bien siempre... te extraño ?

Te amaba, en serio te amaba pero no pudiste notarlo, eras lo mejor de mi vida y espero que te vaya bien siempre... te extraño ?

I still look for the color of your hair in the hallways. Maybe you’ll randomly walk out of a class or come out of a corner..but you never do. I was so in love with you

I still look for you in the now empty hallways of our school. I hope you’ll come of a corner or a classroom and I’ll see your gorgeous face once again but I never do..

i still think of you. just because we don't talk doesn't mean i don't. you're in my thoughts everyday. i wish we could still talk. it's too late now. i hope you're happy where you're at and finding peace that you couldn't before. i hope that i'll find happiness and grow and that if you could ever see me that you'd be a little bit relived

i love you more than i love myself. i want you on the days where you don’t know who you are and i want you on the days where you’re planning your future. you mean the world to me and i’d be lost without you. thank you for showing me a lifetime worth of love in such a small amount of time. i cant wait to tell our kids about us, and show them all of our memories. you’re the one i want now and until the end of our days. words can’t explain how much my heart bursts when you hold my hand or even just hug me. your touch makes me feel at home. i wake up and your the first thing that comes to my mind. when i cant sleep, i imagine our future and it calms me. i don’t know what i would be without you. you’re my person.

I could be honest with you and dishonest at the same time. You only really like me when it's stupid and fun. I like you and I hate to what extent it has imprinted in me and dyed my unconscious. I really wish I never met you, got close to you. I also want to keep you in my life, dear god, I want you. I want you to take this control away.

is it bad that i don’t even remember why we fell out all those years ago? i’m sure it involved me being a crappy person, but thank you for forgiving me. i’m really proud of you for all of your accomplishments.