i love you so much but you clearly dont even care that much about me. i thought we were meant to be and i was full with hope. i hate you so much for making me feel so shitty. fuck you. i love you. i didnt want to say anything bc i didnt wanna ruin the friendship but now im not even sure theres a friendship left to ruin. i used to think i never wanted you out my life but i feel like letting go but i dont know if its the right thing to do and i dont wanna face you.