Unsent messages to MADI

listen im sorry, it seems like i have forgotten you but i havent. i think about you everday and how we used to talk. i miss you alot and your always on my mind. i just wish we could start talking again. but its fine. you have someone else now just forget me

When I fell in love again years later, I knew it was real because the same feelings I had for you came flooding back. I knew I had to take the risk.

loveliest soul i have ever met. your happiness literally means the world to me. i hate to see you leave :(

hey ig?. okay i'll be serious. you made me feel less alone in the world. you made me laugh a lot. you made me feel appreciated. thank you. please remember that none of this has anything to do with you. you were always good enough for me. you didn't do anything wrong. it's all me. please take care of yourself, for me. i love you

Don’t ever tell me how to live my life again! You aren’t in charge of me, you don’t decide what I do!!!! And let me tell you that you are doing no better than me and have not done anything better than me so stop acting as though you’ve got it together and pretending I need to be fixed or sorted out because I’m just as established as you; and get over turning every time your bored into a “therapy session” for me when truth be told... I don’t actually need it!

I really thought it would get easier by now... i still find myself thinking about you, or memories of us every day...

you taught me a lot about myself at the time. even though we def weren't right for each other, i wish you nothing but the best

im so sorry, i really am. for me. your the reason i believe in love, i secretly but not so secretly still love you, i have so much of you in my heart, you will never be unloved by me, you are too well tangled in my soul. forever and always

i still think about the good times we had b4 it all changed. we were both so young. i hope u find urself

i wish the best for you. you've been through a lot. you deserve so much good. i hope you find what makes you happy.

i sometimes wish we could just go back to normal and laugh again. you love me i love you. i miss you angel.

hey lol. i miss you a lot. i lied, was toxic, and was horrible sometimes. but i always did love you. i can promise that. thank you for everything. from, the gon to your killua

I don’t know how I feel or how I’m supposed to feel, and now your dating someone, and I think I’m genuinely starting to see us together. It’s taken me long enough but it’s the worst timing and now I’m scared out of my mind! It might just be me over thinking things but all of a sudden things are changing and I don’t know how to stop them :-(

the things you did to me where horrible and traumatic. you were my best friend for years yet you still took advantage of me. i still haven’t told anyone because i know how much your reputation mean to you and i wouldn’t hurt you like you hurt me. i forgive you but it still hurts. Fuck you madi

you asked me hi we became friends and i said i didn’t remember but it was too graphic for me to tell you that you sent me a meme and asked if i was okay randomly right before i tried to hang myself. i’m not religious but i know an angel when i see one. ur my bestfriend

it’s been 16 months since you left. i don’t blame you looking back. i guess all good things must come to an end huh? i will always love you. i hope your new girl loves you like i did.

why'd i pick you over the girl i had a crush on, just for you to ignore me till i called you out for it

After today I can’t stop thinking about you but I am so scared about ruining our friendship I don’t know what to do, I can’t lose you

I love you. We haven't really talked in a while and I hate it. I wish we could do stuff that makes it seem like we are a couple, like actually going on dates and stuff. I hate that I barely see you everyday and I miss being around you all the time. Since we started dating, I have developed stronger feelings for you, I love you so much

thank you for opening my eyes. real friends wouldn't do what you did to me that night. I was just trying to look out for you

I knew you didn't care, but I severely underestimated how much. Fuck you, Madison. You're gonna get what's coming to you.

sorry for how i've been, you mean a lot to me. my mental health is just completely fucked right now
and things that happened a while ago that you don't know about have been constantly on my mind but that don't mean i have the right to take out my anger and stress out on you. you wouldn't understand and you shouldn't have to understand my problems so i don't mention them, i have so much anger and sadness inside of me at the moment and i don't want you to have to be around that. ily madi x

actually care about you so fucking much but you confuse the living shit out of me, also, all your friends make me wanna kms

I've been thinking about you alot recently. I made alot of dumb mistakes and I know it's my fault that you stopped loving me, but I never got over you. I tried, trust me because it hurt to keep loving you, but I realize now that it never stopped. I miss us. and I have noone I can talk to about it. it's tough being in love with someone who barely remembers you're alive

you are so toxic i don’t know how i’m still here with you. im sorry to myself since i can’t bear to leave.