Unsent messages to LINDSEY

fuck you and your racist ass homophobic ass cheating ass body shaming ass friends. i fucking hate you. i wake up hating myself and go to bed doing the same because of you. i wasn’t insecure before you pointed shit out. i used to have normal eating. habits. now i eat once a day- because your words are stronger than you think. i fucking hate you.

you always knew that i was the one, and i guess you kinda screwed that up. i’ll always keep the open flame for you bc you were my hell, but at the same time you were also my heaven

the people you are surrounding yourself with will not be there when shit goes wrong and now neither will i

you're a liar. you are untrustworthy. i lost my respect. you are fake. i'm still made. i wish i didnt try to keep the peace. fuck you.

blue bc it’s your favorite color, or it was for so long. babe please keep fighting. you mean so much to me and so many other people. the world has so much to offer you. life will get better, i promise, it has before. i really hope you see this, i love you

I just wanna go home to see u but I feel like things won’t ever be the same. Right person, wrong time.

i hope you’re doing well. i’m sorry for fucking things up between us. i just want the old us again. i’ve liked you since march, and the feelings still aren’t gone yet, although i know that you’ll never feel the same way about me. i’m sorry that our friendship is ruined, and i was a piece of shit. i love you, and i just now realize how good you were to me and how caring you were. please forgive me. i love you

I'm leaving for overseas and the only thing I am worried about is will you be there when I get back, I've loved you for a long time, TG