sometimes you make me so fucking angry that it shakes my bones and rattles my core, but I love you. I love you to the point that it makes my blood boil and my insides crumble.

you made me understand why people are named after storms. You were my perfect storm. My lightning in the dark. You ruined my life but I loved every second of it. And even though you put me through hell and back, I still love you.

its me writing to you again, not like you will see it. I miss you so much, why did you ghost me. I want you back in my life you were the reason i was still here. now i dont really have a reason.

I miss you so fucking much. All I want is to cuddle up with you again. I messed things up as usual. I hope some day you'll forgive me. I still love you even though it's been 2 years. I dream about you texting me a hi or hru. You probably have my number blocked but I still have yours saved. Please just come back.

we never ended. we never even began. you gave up. I was ready to spend my life with you. we were kids, in love, oblivious, and carefree. the perfect storm. I remember when I said, “I love you” for the first time. I told you that you didn’t need to say anything because I knew you weren’t ready. I should’ve known. I hurt myself more than you did. I shouldn’t of trusted you. I shouldn’t still be completely and irrevocably in love with you. I’m here, I’m still trying darling. knock on my door and I’ll take you in and love you forever. just like I promised.

i stopped holding a grudge like 2 years ago. why do you still hate me? i think we could be friends again if you gave me the chance. i miss you.

your are so bad you were my first love, then we started to date, you cheated on my 15 times and lied to me so much and i still dated you for a long time, i know you were cheating because that stupid you had me on the tip of your finger and you cheated on me with a teacher, i lefted this note black just like your heart

honestly words can’t express how disappointed i am in you. you’ve lied guilt-tripped and hurt all of us. we’ve all tried so hard to help you but you lied to us and caused unnecessary situations to happen. why didn’t you just tell us, why did you have to lie. why did you cheat not once but three times all while you said you would be a better person and change. this isnt a love letter and this isn’t for me to tell you how i’m sorry. i want to tell you about the negative things you’ve done. my mental health isn’t very sunshine and rainbows but guess what i put you before i put myself because i knew your situation was worse than mine. we spent so much time helping you and making sure you were safe from a NONEXISTENT threat. you knew that it wasn’t real, you knew that it was rp why didn’t you tell us, why. we spent an entire fucking day helping you through NOTHING?? you always use your mental health as an excuse and say that you will become a better person, you say that your sorry. you say that YOU can’t trust US. i’m tired of your bullshit i just want a day where i think for myself and just stop life for a moment. i pity you lilly, i really do. but only to some extent. i do hope your future is better than the present but i’m done. i don’t want to talk to you and i don’t want to tolerate your bullshit anymore. goodbye.

you have been the best friend anyone could have asked for and I wish you knew how beautiful you are,
L

I met someone today. You’d love her. She’s funny and beautiful just like you were. She has the cutest laugh and she snorts when she giggles. She reminds me of you, but she’s not. She’s not you. You were everything and she is only a part of it. I’m sorry I couldn’t save you. I tried baby. I hate myself for not being able to save you. I tried to pull you out but I wasn’t strong enough. I’ll see you soon baby. Love, Alexander have

You believed the lies, you believed the rumours, we were best friend for years but you stabbed me in the back so quickly . You caused me so much pain, the tears I have wasted on you is ridiculous, my eyes were always sore. I can't wait for you to see that you were wrong and ask me to be your friend again and I will just reject it, not that you will care, you must have never cared if you threw our friendship away that quickly.

You'll probably never see this but I miss you. Even though I was miserable when with you. I still love you..

sometimes it’s better that we’re apart. Because then we can’t hurt each other. I know it’s hard to stay away. Believe me I know. But you have to because I can’t handle hurting you. I don’t want to see you cry because it tears me apart. Maybe someday we will find each other. I miss you and I love you forever my darling

You where the first girl I ever truly loved. Even tho we broke up and it took a year for us to be best friends again. I still love you. And it breaks my heart to hear you talk about the girl you like and it breaks my heart to hear you say I love you because I know it doesn’t mean the same it did a year ago.

I miss you so much. I know you've moved on and don't think about me anymore but I still think about you. I still watch your story to see what you're up to and read our old text messages and paragraphs you sent me. my friends tell me to move on already and to just forget about you but I can't, I'm still stuck on you.

Get out of my head. You’re consuming my thoughts and I can’t focus. You’re weighing me down and it feels like you’re tearing up my heart into a bleak nothingness. You said what we had was temporary, so why are you still here? After all this time i’m still irrevocably in love with you and I hate it. I want to hate you. But I can’t because I love you.

you don’t even know but its okay. i wish i could talk to you, as a friend, in general. i’m losing you and it hurts more than you’ll ever know.

I love you . But you have changed over the time I wasn’t with you and now you are a different person than in the beginning.But honestly I would still choose you to have that little bit of happiness you brought me :(

I choose black because that's the colour with the least emotions. I don't need you anymore. You're the most toxic person I know and this time I know that I'm better off without you. I'm done letting you manipulate me and letting you play with my feelings. Tbh I hope that you see this cause then you might realize what you've done. But at the end of the day, I have to thank you, cause your behaviour made me realize that I shouldn't care about what others think cause I'm alone in the end anyway.

i cant tell if i like u or if i like the attention u give me. cant wait to get married when we turn 30 tho :)

sometimes i forget what it was like to be friends with you. thinking about our memories sometimes makes me sick to my stomach because i know we will never speak to eachother again even after being such a big part of eachother lives for so long

I’m happy that you found someone better for you but when you started talking about her and your mouth formed a smile it still broke me into a million pieces .

Thanks for being here with us even though we fight a lot it’s not ur fault it’s some people doesn’t say anything until the last minute well hopefully u stay here with so we could do crazy things together

The idea of love is fictitious at most, but I am willing to parry the thought for you. Your smile, your laugh, those two things keep me going. I know my feelings for you are not mutual, and probably never will be, but I hope that one day they will. Hope, that’s all I can do. And remember, this isn’t random.

I was never with her. I never laughed with her. I never smiled with her. I never thought all night about her. I always thought of you. I always laughed with you. I always smiled with you. I always loved you. And I never told you because I was scared. Scared that you would leave. I need you. I love you. Please come back

its been almost a year and im still not over you and its actually killing me

i think i'm in love with you, i hope it's not too soon

I’m sorry

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all

but why? why did you do what you did.

The feeling of falling in love w u again is one i wish never goes away. Us together js feels right.

I hope we come back around soon. I still think about you when I play Sudoku

whenever sweater weather comes on now i wanna rip my hair out

thanks for that xx

I will still love you when you move on. I love you too much to move on from you

I wish I could forget it and we could star over again like two dumb idiots with amnesia problems.

You were my favorite person. I was obsessed with you. Why did you have to hurt me the way you did?

im still hoping that one day things will work out.

give your heart to me not him.

i hope you get all you want in life and more but just in case i'm here

I’m over it but you should have told me you didn’t actually love me and it was just a word to you.

i never said it, but i loved you. i still love you, even after you made it clear that you don’t

i just want you to be happy. nothing should be in the way of that

I have anorexia but I’m too scared to tell anyone, even you. I’m sorry.

Maybe never again

I wish you understood how much you mean to me. I don’t know what I would do without you.

I love you so much but I don't think you ever fully take my feelings into consideration

i just wish you wouldn’t have rode in that car. we miss you down here.

I will always love you and I know I can be a jerk, but I am sorry.

You ruined me.

in the blink of an eye, i love you again