Unsent messages to KRISTOPHER

I will always love u I promised myself it

I haven’t stopped thinking of you since I met you.

I love you so much. Please come back to me, my pretty boy. I gave you my everything, please.

I miss you sooo much man. We went to school together and we would talk on Snap. You were my bff ????????

Make the first move, my love. I will forever appreciate it because I yearn for you like no other. <3

you say you like to pretend these are for you, well this one is. ❤️

do you still think about me?

i just want to be held in your arms

I'm standing here until you make me move..

this will come off as rude but i am completely fed up at this point. and i hope u know this is not a love letter for a first love. i am writing this bc i hope u find the tik tok and search ur own name and see this and maybe think that its about u: I dont like u and i never ever have. u need to stop making these scenarios in your head. u make me extremely extremely extremely uncomfortable and u need to stop. i dont think of u like that and i dont even think of u as close of a friend as u think of me. stop randomly touching me, stop texting me, stop waiting for me, stop wanting to walk me home. i see that its out of kindness, but u gotta realize that i dont want u to do any of that and im on the verge of completely ghosting u. read the room. please. i dont know what i gotta do to get this thru to ur head. ur so unconfrontational that i cant even say it straight up to ur face. stop getting possessive and jealous of my other realtionships with guys because u dont have the right to. u dont get to decide how close of a friendship we have. its a two way thing. i may be important to u but u are not to me. i have never liked u like that. we were never together. there was never a possibility of us and there never will be. u are completely unattractive to me and come off as a complete creep when u do things like that. i am literally just being nice. thats it. so get this out of ur head. im so mad that u try to mix with my friends. and then u get mad whn i dont invite u with my friends out. u r not my friend like that!!!! the only reason i was nice to u this whole time and talked to u and introduced u to my friends is because i pittied u at one point and i didnt want u to rely on me or anything of that sorts. i tried to drop hints and i even stopped talking to u at one point. and i will do it all again if u dont back the f off. there is no future for us. there never was. there never will be. i dont even want to be one of ur "best" friends. none of what u think about me, either crush or best friend, is what i think of u. so get over it.

you hurt my feelings. but i let you because my love for you is greater than any pain you could ever cause me.